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T’was the Nightmare Before Christmas,

…when all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
Or a ballerina.

Superheros
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Or an Ironman, a Captain America, nor a Thor.

Nothing hits the empty nester like a Holloween without your kids. Even all grown up ones. I would have given my left…ovary for my kids to come crashing in, bragging about their booty.

My girl in her Amazon Warrior costume, broadsword slung across her back and my boy dressed up in jeans and a T-shirt holding his pillowcase and telling me he is dressed as a high school student…

Lonely Halloween

But alas, it is no more. Not a peep. Not a knock, a ding dong, or a flaming bag of poo. Just a bowl full of Reeses and Baby Ruths…untouched. Except for maybe one or two. Or four.

It’s okay. Castle: Season 3 disc 4 was good, and I got some writing done. Finished a chapter in my book, dressed like someone in her jammies.

Happy Halloween!

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  1. Diana Losk

    November 1, 2012 at 9:30 pm

    Now it is my turn to get a bit weepy. I hope you get to see a picture of my pink Ga Ga esque/Pepto Bismol girl. Funny!

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    • Kathy

      November 1, 2012 at 10:16 pm

      Send it to me and then hug the girl. They go away far too quickly. Sniff. I’m over it. xoxo

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  2. Tanya

    November 2, 2012 at 1:24 pm

    Good to hear your thoughts . Have always enjoyed how you are wired. Cheering you on to be the writer that you are 😉

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    • Kathy

      November 2, 2012 at 2:10 pm

      Thank you Tanya. You have always had a way of making me feel like a rock star.

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  3. Emily

    November 2, 2012 at 6:47 pm

    Mooooooooom! i missed you too!!! But you would have had to make me soup and tea and other various cold remedies 🙂

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    • Kathy

      November 2, 2012 at 8:01 pm

      And dab your brow! :*

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      • Emily

        November 11, 2012 at 12:10 am

        NO BROW DABBING!!!!!

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        • Kathy

          November 11, 2012 at 11:23 am

          😀 Heehee!

          Reply
  4. Sandy Z.

    November 4, 2012 at 4:34 pm

    I’d be happy to send you the rest of our candy and a lollipop-spit drenched hat from a certain Little Dude’s dog costume if it would help remind you of happier times 🙂 If you were an eensy, weensy bit closer, we totally would have come a’ trick-or-treatin’!!

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Copyright © 2025 · Kathy Martens

Be careful what you pray for. You just might get it.

I lay in the dark. My pounding heart threatens to bash its way through my rib cage. My frantic brain is sending me into a full-fledged panic attack: Eternity with God or a career in film? Eternity with God or fame and wealth? What will I choose? Heaven or Hell? If this goes on much longer, it’s going to crash my hard drive.

“Please God, please.” Hot tears make their way down my cheeks, pool at the base of my throat. “Help me to know if you’re real. Show me if Jesus is the deal and if I’m supposed to follow Him. Please, God . . .”

With the swiftness of a sudden summer breeze, a calming sense of peace washes over me. It descends heavy, from the top of my head, running down my entire body like warm honey. All my poor convulsed muscles relax and melt with it. I weep some more, but this time it feels more akin to joy.

And then, I sleep.

I dream I am a sojourner among a peculiar people who speak in tongues of angels and practice the holy arts of casting out demons and raising the dead. I dream of wheels within wheels, fiery prophets, and a new world order. I wander in this strange Wonderland for what seems a lifetime. One day, I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the glass . . . and I no longer recognize the face gazing back at me.

I wake up, and twenty-two years have passed.

Come, step beyond the looking glass with me and I will show you things. Hilarious and heartbreaking things, bizarre and byzantine things, weird and wonderful things. Like that time I fell down a rabbit hole and spent twenty-two years as a Bible thumping, tongue speaking, Gospel preaching, Born Again Christian. And then I woke up.

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